Part of recovery is making the transition from that time when you're just totally focused on the surgery, the chemotherapy, the radiation, the fatigue. When that's finally over, and then you kind of hit that point where physically, you're starting to feel better and that's really encouraging. But emotionally or psychologically, you're just totally drained. And sometimes I wanted to just stop and not really do anything. I think I was really depressed for several weeks. Partly that's a reaction to all this physical and emotional stress, and part of it is looking ahead and saying, now I have to deal with my life. Actually, there was one day there I was so depressed I don't think I got out of bed all day and I called up all the hospitals in the phone book to find a cancer support group that was meeting that night and I drove 30 miles to get to one.