When we face any trauma we have to go through these series of feelings. We'll get angry and then we'll have grief feelings. Because I've dealt with other traumatic issues, like I lost my brother when he was 28. My mother just a couple of years ago. Maybe today I can go through them far more quickly than I used to. So even the night that I realized I had cancer in the lymph nodes, it shook me up for about five minutes and then I went back to watching the movie I had rented. Oh well! What are you going to do about it, you know?