I know the difference today between living and trying to live, and I feel sorry for anybody who has been promising themselves that next year, or when I can retire, then I'm going to live. There's got to be an awful lot of panic if somebody tells you you have cancer and you feel you haven't lived yet. Or there's a whole lot of life issues you haven't resolved, if you haven't told certain people you love them enough, often enough. If you haven't told them you're sorry enough. But I've been really grateful because I have dealt with things like that through being in recovery in a twelve-step program.