Please make friends with your cancer. Don't hate yourself. It's not something green and fuzzy like growing on an orange that you have to despise yourself for. There are exceptional people out there, people who have beat the odds. They live. Read about them. There's not a whole lot done regarding the quality of life they live. You know, they may later be tagged as having "well behaved cancer." When it's actually their spirituality, their peace of mind, their generous loving, giving nature that has caused them to continue. The cancer's probably having so much fun that it chooses to go right along with them and not kill them.