The hardest thing to accept

When I had the biopsy, there was some doubt as to whether or not there was lymph node involvement. So of course, the next surgery was to pull out the lymph nodes and make a determination of whether or not they were positive, and unfortunately, there were positive lymph nodes. That meant the possibility of chemotherapy and I think that was the hardest thing for me to accept. Like everyone else, I had heard the horror stories. Part of what I went through was a form of denial because I couldn't believe that I was out there functioning, but yet I had cancer. You feel good. You really cannot accept the fact that your body is being invaded by cancer.

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