The pain was terrible, just terrible. Felt like it was just hell. That spinal thing. It had appeared on my back. I felt like I wanted to put one leg into a sling, it hurt so bad. And then that obstruction. That hurt real bad because I needed to go the bathroom and I couldn't. That pain was so bad. If I had anyway of killing myself, I actually would have. But I didn't know how, and I was afraid I'd make a mess of it, which I would've, so I didn't.