When you've been through something like cancer you really know that each day is a gift. It is really hard when you have this pain and you feel miserable and you're snapping at the people you love. It might be a beautiful spring day outside and you can't enjoy it because you're in so much pain and depression that comes from feeling the pain. It's a matter of acceptance once again of just making the pain part of your life. Then you start to live your life with the pain. Not in spite of it, not battling it, but with it.